new balance

as i've found with most areas of my life i am an extremely obsessive person. i find a fun new activity, person, whatever, and all of the sudden my life becomes completely devoted to that "whatever." plainly put, i need balance, stability, direction...right? graduated from college i think it is slowly setting in how much control i have over where my life goes; it is a little overwhelming.

however, my obsessive personality is still getting the better of me, and i'm really on the fence with this whole stability thing. i do what i want...i do what makes me happy...live without fear...love without remorce sort of thing. sounds like it should be coming from a meryl streep movie or something.

you should easily notice my patterns for blogging. i started off with a bang. then came senior year of college...now i picked up hockey...put away the guitar and drums...i'm sure i'll rebound and pick those up again even though it's been two months since i've played and i haven't taken a break that long for five years straight. as mr. dylan said, the times, they are a'changin'. i feel for the better. maybe "reality" is sinking in and i'm learning what place in the world i am supposed to take. but i refuse to follow that pattern.

so far this summer i have seen so many good shows...dmb, paramore, no doubt, ziggy marley, 311 to name...well, all of them. so good! i have a job...unemployment was one of the worst feelings ever. i was jobless for two months and nearly lost my mind. there are so many things to be thankful for right? emma thompson and kenneth branagh are brilliant actors!

Oh Hot Damn, This is My Jam!

I've had that song stuck in my head the past three minutes and I'm loving it. I'm currently in my COBOL class. Way Boring, unless you're into writing computer code for programs that can calculate averages, count the number of entries of auto parts in the program, or any other pointless task that really doesn't warrant the use of a computer, much less the efforts of a programmer. I know nothing about computers except point the mouse and click and then my signature three-fingered typing skills. Try this next time you write your blog. Type with just the pointer and middle finger of your right hand and just the index of your left. Now you can tell why I don't blog much.

Actually that is not true. My computer has been out of commission for about a month. However, it is on its way back home and things should make a return to normalcy.

Speaking of normalcy, I feel like I'm slowing coming back to the things I used to love doing but have been failing to do so. In particular, I couldn't sleep the other night so I went for an awesome run through the Kirksville streets at about 3 am. I eventually made my way to my schools new, unnecessary, and expensive turf football field where I just laid at the fifty yard line and looked up at the stars. I forgot how much fun stargazing was, especially in a chilly fall night. I love this season. By far, the best season of all. Then before I made my way back to my house to read Anthony Kiedis' autobiography I made a mad dash across the field in an effort to be the next Reggie Bush or something.

The front man of the Red Hot Chili Peppers had a pretty interesting childhood. So far, by age 12, the guy has already done every drug his dad could get him, was partying in night clubs, and even slept with his dad's girlfriend. Needless to say, this guy was made to be a rockstar. Still, I highly recommend this read for any of you Chili Pepper fans out there. He is very introspective when not showering you with his random stories and he provides great insight to the band's history and song ideas.